Tuesday, 24 June 2014

5 Things To Do This Summer

"What time is it?" SUMMER TIME!!!

The summer holiday between secondary school and sixth form will be the longest one of my life. 12 weeks. Yeah baby! And I desperately don't want to waste it. I usually spend my holidays lying in bed watching Netflix and playing Sims (and I'll probably do a bit of that these holidays) but I wanna be slightly more productive than usual. That's why I've thought of a few things to keep me busy this summer such as:
  • Blogging more- I never thought I would, but I quite enjoy writing my thoughts and documenting my feelings. I'll admit that I'm not the strongest writer and passing my English GCSEs proved to be difficult, but blogging is different as it is more relaxed with less pressure as I'm free to write what I want.  It will be fun to grow my blog with more posts.
  • Exercise-Hahahaha...oh no! But it has to be done. These past few months I've literally been stuffing my face as a distraction from revising and lets just say I dont want to be slipping into any bad habits.
This will be what happens when I try to be healthy
  • Sort my room out- My room has turned out to be a bit of a disaster because revision notes were piling up everywhere and I still have all my school stuff filling up my cupboards that need to be taken out ready for the new year. I feel like until my room is tidy I wont be able to think straight.
Wish me luck sorting through my school work!
  • Read more- Now I'm not someone who likes reading...at all. But since everyone keeps saying how good it is I kinda feel like I'm missing out. My mission: to read the entire Harry Potter series over these holidays (I'm a really slow reader and it takes me about quarter of an hour to read 20 pages)
Cant wait to get stuck in
  • Social Media- I'd like to post more on websites such as Tumblr, Twitter and YouTube. I recently got all these accounts and I'm still worried about posting for fear of "does this sound stupid" and "everybody's gonna hate me". I hate that this stops me from enjoying myself so I just have to grit my teeth and stop being so self conscious. 
The song of the day is Human by Christina Perri.

Monday, 23 June 2014

Finishing Secondary School :(

Even though I was never popular or stood out during school, I still enjoyed (almost) every day of it and its so strange to think that I've finished 12 years of it. Out of all the stages of school, secondary school was the most enjoyable.

Strangely enough I wasn't scared about starting year 7, because I remembered that when I started Junior School I was terrified but there turned out to be nothing to be nervous about. The most exciting things that happened were 2 school trips to Warwick Castle and then to Germany for a week. I took the new experience in and talked to a large range of people from new schools and new classes. However, I soon got back to my usual shy self when everyone made their new friendship groups. Looking  back its strange to see how grown up I felt going into secondary school and thinking "now that I'm in Year 7 everyone will take me seriously!" Hahaha that didn't quite happen.
Me at Warwick Castle (so rebellious with my top button undone!)

Now that I've had my leavers day and prom its started to sink in that I have really finished. There will be lots of things I will miss like:

  • Seeing friends everyday (I know I'll see some at Sixth form but some are moving to a new school)
  • Being in large classes because next year it will be smaller so I cant blend away as much
  • Private jokes between people
  • School trips, even though I only went on about 3, because I'll doubt there'll be many next year
  • Having the whole security and knowing that there will always be people to help. Also the fact that I don't have to make any decisions about my future yet.
To sum up year 11 in 3 words I would say: stressful, fun and quick. I had 17 exams at the end of the year which meant sleepless nights and lots of worrying. Fun because despite exams there were lots of fun events as the leavers day and prom. And for obvious reasons quick because it seemed to go by in 5 minutes and it still hasnt sunk in that I am no longer at secondary school.

On the last day everyone dressed up and met in the park before walking to school together. Me and my friends decided to dress with a Disney theme and I went as Jessie from Toy Story. That day was the best out of the year because everyone was so happy and it was just really nice for everyone to celebrate the last 5 years together. 

The song of the day is going to be Salute by Little Mix and I know it has no real relevance but its just a really good song. 

Friday, 20 June 2014


I've never really seen the big deal with prom or seen what the whole fuss and shabang is about. However, the less I cared about it and the more people questioned me about it the more I dreaded the whole thing. I know I'm probably gonna sound ungrateful but I'm not. Its just once the nerves start to kick in I can't even!

The lead up to prom (or akdjakjgkajdklajkd as I often refered to it) was by far the most stressful part. Most people were like "OMG I cant wait to get my hair and nails done and pick out my dream dress" but I wasn't really interested. People kept asking me what plans I had made for the big day and to be honest I had no idea because I never really thought about it. Being someone who likes to plan everything this really bothered me. This lead to me changing the topic every time someone brought it up or pushing it to the back of my mind.

Then, at 11pm the night before, I had a bit of a breakdown. Again... I had told my friends that I didn't want to go before because I couldn't deal with the pressure of having to organise everything but luckily they convinced me otherwise. So at 11pm I told my mum that I couldn't sleep and she said that it was probably just excitement but then I had no choice but to tell her how I'd been feeling for the past months. Thankfully she wasn't angry at me despite being so excited to see me all dressed up. She said that I didn't have to go and that she would tell everyone that I was sick so I wouldn't let anyone down by saying I just didn't want to go. After waking up the next morning and sleeping on this decision I decided that i would go for 3 reasons.
A: I didn't want to let my friends down because they were nervous too.
B: My family had spent probably more than they should have on it (woops) and I didn't want to let it go to waste.
C: I don't want to be someone who drops out last minute because their scared because then I wont learn how to deal with big events.

With all the melodramatic nonsense aside I can begin to talk about the actual night which to my surprise wasn't actually...that bad.

Getting ready was actually quite exciting once I excepted that I was actually gonna go. My dress was a surprise when it came because on the website it was a light minty green colour but when it came it was more a lime colour but it still looked gorgeous. As soon as I saw it I knew it was the dress I wanted which was good because I seriously had no clue what I wanted before. 

My dress from the front/side

My hair was done in curls and plaited to the side with a waterfall braid on the other side.
My hair from 3 angles (I know I look like I'm horrified I'm just not very photogenic)

My nails were probably the easiest part of getting ready because just brought a set of fake nails for £5 at Claires and stuck them on in about 10 seconds. Simple!
Chilling in the Limo. Apparently this is my excited face

The bit I was dreading the most by far was the red carpet. At my school, before we go inside, we have to go up a red carpet which feels like it is 200 miles long but in reality is probably only about 20 meters. The thing that was scaring me the most about the entire day was walking in because people from my entire town turn up to watch it. I hate being the center of attention and that's all prom is really isn't it?

After all the moaning I've done in this post I thought I should take the time to mention that after all the panicking I really did have a good time. Everyone looked beautiful and everyone was in such a happy mood and had been waiting a really long time for the exams to finish and celebrate. Long story short the night consisted of:
  • Riding in a Limo and the driver "suggesting" that we turned the music up so he didn't have to listen to us singing anymore
  • Taking pictures
  • Listening to everyone complain about their heels but being brave and baring the pain
  • Dancing lots and lots and lots
  • Getting a coach with my school for the last time to the hotel  and the driver getting lost
  • Eating pizza at said hotel
  • Giving up and taking shoes off (black feet for the evening but worth it)
  • Dancing and singing lots more
After all that I would say that it was not worth the nerves because it was a fun evening that needed no stress at all. If I could do it again I would, over and over again, but do it with enjoying the getting ready process a bit more. I enjoyed myself the whole night long and thank you for everyone that made it enjoyable!

The song of the day is a little bit different to usual but its Wiggle by Jason Derulo because it was played over and over at prom and its the catchiest song in existence.