Thursday, 14 June 2018

Expectations Vs Reality Of Being At University

Being a student is something else, let me tell you that now! Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change my experience for the world and I've had the best first year imaginable. The only thing is I had so many expectations of what university would be like (and what I'd be like at university) but it was completely different to how I imagined.

I've come up with 10 expectations vs realities of university:

1. Expectation: I'd go to every party and go clubbing multiple times a week

Reality: I can't hack it! Being a 20 year old in first year has made me feel like an OAP when it comes to being able keep up with the kiddos (even if they are still more mature than me). Even though I'm still crazy for clubbing, I feel like I just couldn't physically do it every night anymore like I used to... *sigh* I'm getting old.

2. Expectation: En Suite halls are better than shared accommodation

Reality: As nice as it is to have the luxury of having your own bathroom, you have to clean it              yourself and they tend to be more expensive. If you're a sociable person, shared halls are definitely      the halls for you. By visiting my friends in shared halls I am now a changed person after witnessing some of the madness in there, it's just too funny!

3. Expectation: I'll still have normal sleeping and eating patterns

Reality: Nope. I jet-lagged myself. Honestly I'd just end up napping whenever I was tired and eating whenever I was hungry. 3am? Perfect time to eat a bowl of pasta. 3pm? Perfect time for a nap.

4. Expectation: I'd make an effort with my appearance, keeping on top of my nails, roots and fake tan

Reality: The only makeup I wore to my lectures was last night's if I'd been clubbing. I went to the      launderette in my dressing gown. And my personal best achievement was going to Spoons in my        pajamas. 

5. Expectation: My week would be filled with lectures

Reality: Most my classes were in blocks together, meaning I was only in uni for three full days and had loads of free time outside classes. 

6. Expectation: I'll budget my week

Reality: Helllooooo overdraft! Someone needs to take my card off me when I'm out to make sure I    don't spend another £85 on jagerbombs...

7. Expectation: Uni is a fresh start where you won't know anyone

Reality: You'll know someone in the town or city you're studying in. I don't think I've ever gone into Liverpool without bumping into someone I know from home, it really is a small world.

8. Expectation: Students are mature

Reality: HAHAHAHAHA! Even though I rely on myself to do my own washing and cooking (and just generally making sure I survive) don't be surprised to find me watching an episode of Arthur in my room eating a family pack of cookie crisp cereal. 

9. Expectation: University courses are harder than A-Levels

Reality: Now I know this depends on your course. But in my personal experience if someone asked me whether my Film&Media course is harder than my Chemistry A Level I'd say nope, not at all! I know I'm only in first year though so I don't want to jinx it ;)

10. Expectation: Everyone is there because they are passionate about the course they are studying. 

Reality: As a self-diagnosed nerd the thought of spending £9000+ on something you don't live and breathe for honestly baffles me. But no, some people are genuinely 100% just there for the piss up!

So these are a few ways in which I noticed uni was different to how I imagined it. The song of the day is Cola by Camelphat and Elderbrook because I think I listened to that song more than any other at uni. Let me know how your student experience is going if you're a student too,

Izzy K xxx

Thursday, 5 April 2018

Get To Know Me Tag

Tags are some of my favourites to share on my blog because they just feel so personal. I love feeling like you guys can get to know me better, and these questions are a great way to do that. So I hope you enjoy this tag:

Jk please get to know me!

1. Are you named after anyone?

I believe I was named after Isabella Rossellini. Well I think it was more the fact my parents heard her name and liked it, I don't think I was named after her for any specific reason. 

2. When was the last time you cried?

I think I cry near enough every day of my life because I'm always an emotional wreck. But to answer the question it was after hearing some bad news about a family member earlier this week.

3. Do you have kids?

I don't, but people my age are starting to get married and have kids which is literally freaking me out!

4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?

Hell no, I'm a mess with a terrible sense of humor.

5. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

No, never!

6. Will you ever bungee-jump?

I'd LOVE to because I love things like rollercosters and anything that is fun like that. It's definitely on my bucket list. 

7. What’s your favorite cereal?

Special K, chocolate flavour. 

8. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Their smile as cheesy as that sounds, and their sense of humor. 

9. What is your eye colour?

Blacky brown. 

10. Scary movie or happy endings?

Scary movies for sure I'm such a horror fan.

11. Favorite smells?

Roses and mint. But not together haha.

12. Summer or winter?

Winter for sure I literally can't stand summer. I'm cold blooded for sure.

13. Computer or television?

Computer, because you can watch TV on your computer. I definitely couldn't be without my laptop.

14. What’s the furthest you’ve ever been from home?

I went to Sofia, Bulgaria last May and that's the furthest I've ever traveled.

15. Do you have any special talents?

Every now and again I can make a few people chuckle with my terrible jokes, but other than that I'm the definition of talentless. 

16. Where were you born?

Solihull, England. 

17. What are your hobbies?

I love anything to do with social media and filming and editing. I'm so passionate about my youtube channel. I'm not fussed about getting views or likes or anything (if that was the case I would have given up a long time ago) I just love that it's my creative outlet where I can be as silly as I want. 

18. Do you have any pets?

I'm the biggest animal lover ever and at my parents house we have 2 cats and 2 chickens. But I've had every pet imaginable from hamsters to stick insects. 

19. Favorite movie?

Definitely Submarine (2010, Richard Ayoade) because it's got a genius script filled with dark humor and it's just so aesthetically pleasing. 

20. Do you have any siblings?

I have a younger sister called Vicky, but I refer to her as "Smelly". 

21. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Hmmm this is a hard one! I literally just wanna take every single opportunity that there is for me to have a job doing anything in the media industry.

The song of the day is Scared To Be Lonely by Dua Lipa. Thanks for reading,

Izzy K xxx

Thursday, 29 March 2018

How To Pick A Degree You're Passionate About

It took me ages to decide whether I wanted to go to university or not. Whilst I was in 6th form I applied to study Psychology, fully knowing that I had no intention of actually going to university but everyone else was so I thought "meh I might as well apply for anything". But after actually taking the time to realize what I was passionate about, I am now very happily studying Media and Communication & Film studies at a university in Liverpool.

I honestly think I've made the best decision of my life because it's honestly the most ideal course for me and I'm so in love with what I'm studying. That's why I thought I'd share my tips on how I chose a degree that was perfect for me...

1. Be selfish- It's not often people tell you to do this, but when it comes to what is best for your studies putting yourself first is essential. Everyone's got their unique skills and talents, so the only way you're gonna choose a course that is right for you is by picking one that you yourself want to do. There's no point going to university to study a subject that you think your parents, family, friends or potential future employers want you to do. Do what's right for you and only you!

2. Evaluate the career you want to go in to- For me I always knew I wanted a career in the media. But don't ask me specifically what area though, I have no idea yet. That's why I thought "why don't I just do a media degree instead of psychology degree, if I'm gonna end up doing media anyway". 

3. Evaluate your hobbies- If you're unsure of the career field you wanna go into, that doesn't matter (let's face it most people don't really know what they want to do with their lives). The best way you're gonna know what career you wanna go into is to base it off your hobbies. Like with me for example, all I do in my spare time is go on YouTube and go on Netflix so a Media+Film degree = a no brainer.

4. Look at universities- First of all you're gonna have to find universities that actually teach the subjects you want to do... obviously! But then an important factor to consider is the rankings of those universities. My advice would be not to look at the overall ranking of that uni, but the ranking of the course you're looking at. There's no point applying one of the top 10 universities in the country if it's got bad facilities to teach your specific course. 

5. Visit the universities- Speak to students about their experience, look at student satisfaction, meet your potential future lectures and look at the location of your actual university. Looking at a university on the internet is soooooo different to seeing it in person, and you're gonna wanna make sure you will enjoy every second of living there.

6. Have a final sleep on it- Have a think to yourself whether you can really see yourself wanting to get up each morning to go to your lectures and whether you're really that passionate about your course that you'll spend time outside your lessons working on your degree.

As someone who knows what its like to study the perfect subject for them, I would say its definitely worth it to wait until you know what you want to do for sure. The song of the day is Stolen Moments by The Vamps. Let me know if you have any questions about my university experience so far, I'll be happy to answer :)

Izzy K xxx

Thursday, 22 March 2018

TV Characters We All Love To Hate

Every TV show has THAT character. The one who you would hate to be friends with in real life, yet they're the ones who you actually watch the show for. After all, they are the show.

Here are my top ten fave characters that I know I should hate, but I just simply love them:

10. Cook from Skins

This loveable rogue is the one of the love interests of Effy, and all though she ends up being #teamfreddie you as the audience cant help but have a soft spot for good ol' Cook. Despite his hard outer shell, he really is a big softy on the inside.

9. Tommy Shelby from Peaky Blinders

He's the baddie. But do we care? No we don't. We're routing for gangster Tommy, and his clan the whole way. Plus, as a Brummie, I approve of his accent!

8. Cheryl Blossom from Riverdale

Cheryl can be a bit cold hearted. But honestly we're all here for it. Her clever plans and wicked ways just are the life and soul of Riverdale, and lets face it we all kinda wanna be her.

7. Frank Gallagher from Shameless

This applies for both the UK and US version. Frank is a lazy lazy lazy father who simply isn't doing a lot for himself or others for that matter. Even though we wouldn't be jumping through hoops to have him in our own family, he really is the ultimate storyline behind the show.

6. Ross from Friends

If you know a "Ross" in person, all I'm saying is "Run". He's clingy, he's big headed and in my opinion just annoying in general. Yet his storylines are the best. I'm willing to fight anyone who says "The One With Ross's Tan" isn't the ultimate best episode.

5. Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory

Sheldon is a difficult one. His pedantic ways require a certain type of person to tolerate him, yet the comedy he provides to the show is pure genius (if you'll pardon the pun). But honestly TBBT is a show I love to hate in general.

4. Vod from Fresh Meat

She is the bee's knees and she knows it. The word "cool" was invented by Vod, yet she really uses this to her advantage to be able to do exactly whatever she wants and when because she knows she can.

3. Nathan from Misfits

The ultimate naughty boy. He's got no filter which explains how he gets himself into tricky situations. Is Misfits even Misfits without Nathan?

2. Jay from The Inbetweeners

How he thinks he's getting away with his blatant lies is beyond us. Jay is the sort where you tell him you've been to Tenerife and next thing you know he's been to Elevenerife. The cringe is real, but we can't stop watching.

1. Ned Flanders from The Simpsons

He really knows how to grind Homer's (and our) gears, but he's so innocent bless him. Let's be real, we all know a Ned IRL. 

So here are the top ten characters we all love to hate. The song of the day is Drunk In Love by Beyonce. Let me know if you feel any other characters should be on this list,

Izzy K xxx

Thursday, 1 March 2018

The Spring Tag

I hate to admit this but Spring is a Season I almost forget about completely! Like my head just gets wrapped around the whole hype of Autumn, and then the festiveness in Winter. That's why by the time it comes to Spring I just take the time to return back to my ordinary day routine and just sort of get on with things without taking much in.

But this year I thought I'd show Spring some recognition and do the Spring tag. I know Winter isn't quite over yet, but I thought I'd get prepared for Spring before I completely forget that it ever happened. So here is the tag:

1. Favourite Spring nail polish?

My nails have been completely neglected since starting university. Like I've seriously had an intervention from a friend who asked WTF even happened to my nails because it's not like me to not have my nails done. But I have no nail polish with me at uni and my broke student ass can't afford to get them done so instead I'll show you a picture of some nails I really like...

How cute are these nails?!

2. What is your must-have lip colour this Spring?

Pumpkin by LimeCrime. Although the name suggests that it might be an Autumn shade, I just feel like it's the perfect Spring shade because it's so bright and cheerful.

3. Show us your favourite spring dress!

LMAO you must be joking if you think I'm able to stroll around the North of England in a dress, I legit have to wrap up like I'm wandering through the Arctic!

How me and the squad dress in Liverpool

4. What is your favourite flower?

I know it's cliche to say Roses, but I love all the different colours and shades that they come in. Also forget-me-nots are the cutest little things ever.

5. Favourite Spring scarf/accessory?

Maybe my school leaver's hoodie? Lol I legit just live in that at the moment.

6. What Spring trends are you most excited about this year?

If leaving the house in your PJs was a spring trend I'd be pretty chuffed about that. But since I don't think that's quite gonna be the trend of 2018 I'd have to say oversized jumpers and tops.

7. Favourite spring candle?

For some reason I never seem to light candles in the Spring and I don't know why that is. But I'd have to say "Under The Palms" by Yankee Candle because it legit smells of being on holiday. 

8. Favourite spray/perfume for Spring?

Even though I sound like a year 8 for saying this, I love the Impulse range.

9. What is spring like where you live?

I currently live in Liverpool and it's bloody freezing. Although I did see the Sun for the first time since like moving here, which is actually what inspired me to write this post. 

Can't lie, Liverpool is pretty in the Spring though

10. What is your favourite thing about Spring?

I love that you almost get a sense of a fresh start. Like everything seems to grow and come back to life again and that's what I feel like is happening to me this time of year. 

11. Are you a Spring cleaner?

I'm more a "keep on top of it while you can" sort of cleaner, otherwise my mess just gets out of control. Like Izzy is a mess of a person so I've gotta make sure I stick to my weekly cleaning rota otherwise things get out of hand. 

12. Any plans for Spring break or an upcoming vacation?

During the Easter holidays I have exactly 0 plans which I'm actually looking forward to. I think I might have my first proper time off since starting uni because I spent Christmas working but it will just be nice to relax and just stay on top of my uni work as much as I can. 

So that was the Spring tag I hope you enjoyed reading. The song of the day is Dua Lipa's anthem which is IDGAF. What's your favourite thing about Spring?

Izzy K xxx

Thursday, 22 February 2018

My Experience Seeking Help For Anxiety

I was unsure whether to write this post for two reasons. Firstly, I've never actually talked about my personal experiences with anxiety anywhere on the internet before. Secondly, I had a negative experience when it came to seeking help with my anxiety and I didn't want to put people off looking for help if they need it.

However, I feel like it is important to talk about my negative experience, since it identifies a flaw in the system and I feel like it is an important subject to raise awareness for. My experience won't reflect everyone's, and now that I'm in a better place looking back I do feel like I did the right thing by seeking help.

If you've known me in person at any stage of my life you will know that I've always just been a shy person. At the age of 14, this really intensified and with exams approaching I noticed my stress levels were through the roof. I found myself having panic attacks and literally bursting into tears in social situations that required me to talk in front of people. I was isolating myself away out of fear of going out of my comfort zone, I couldn't sleep and my hair was literally falling out due to stress.

You can see in this screenshot from a old video
 how thin my hair got around my hairline

As I said before, I put my feelings and symptoms entirely down to exam stress. And then after leaving school I was still experiencing panic attacks and feeling anxious, even though I was in my "stress free gap year" and technically didn't have anything to worry about. This is when I realized I had a problem.

At the age of 18, after 4 years of feeling like this every day, I decided to take the first steps in seeking help and made a doctor appointment. I told my mum I was doing this, and she really encouraged me to do this because she could see how it was affecting me. I was so nervous to even go and speak to a doctor, because I never actually told anyone out loud how I was feeling.

After a consultation with my doctor, he diagnosed me with anxiety and having a stress disorder. He advised me to make an appointment with a counselor and gave me an information booklet with their details on it. The first thing I had to do was have a phone consultation with this counselor before they decided whether to do sessions in person.

The reason I was looking for help with dealing with my anxiety was because everyday situations were causing me to become extremely distressed. The woman who interviewed me on the phone asked me "are you able to do everyday tasks such as go to work?

I answered that yes I could physically do these tasks, yet they were causing me anxiety to do. She replied "I'm sorry, but I'm really struggling to see why you're making an appointment if it seems like you can do every day tasks".

I know that she didn't mean it to come across rude, but it was just a huge slap in the face to be told by a counselor that you shouldn't even be looking for help when it took me 4 years to pluck up the courage to even make an appointment because I felt like I was being silly by doing so in the first place.

Like I know that I could physically perform tasks, like get on a bus to go to work, but I'd rather learn how to cope with my anxiety so that I didn't get panic attacks at the thought alone of getting on public transport. I was looking for a solution to live an every day life, without not only having my anxiety stop me, but not cause me any distress in the meantime.

Luckily, my life circumstances changed. I met new people, I was constantly challenged to go out of my comfort zone in my gap year and I ended up gaining a lot of confidence. This lead me to almost naturally fight my anxiety away. I still have moments where I feel like all I want to do is lock myself away in my room because I feel like I cant do something, but I'm coping a lot better now. I think the most important step I took was admitting that I had a problem, and confessing to people close to me how I felt.

I'm writing this post because I feel like a flaw in the system of treating mental health is a lack of understanding from professionals who treat people. Don't get me wrong, I know there are lot's of amazing people out there who do wonders treating people. Yet I just feel like it can be such an intimidating experience to even ask for help, yet alone being told that you don't fully qualify for treatment. Anyone asking for help to deal with mental health should be treated with care and understanding. There are different levels of mental health illnesses, and anyone dealing with one should feel like they can receive help if they ask for it, not just extreme cases. 

Even though the route of seeking counselling wasn't effective for me when I first tried it, I still encourage people to tell people how they feel and not be ashamed to look for help with mental health. I'm just proud of myself for speaking up about how I felt, because that alone felt like a huge weight off my shoulder.

Thank you for reading, this was the first time that I've spoke about my own personally experiences with mental health on the internet. The song of the day is Human by The Killers. I hope that this has been a useful post to read and if you have any questions, please let me know in the comments,

Izzy K xxx

Thursday, 8 February 2018

Survival Guide For Moving To A New City

In September I made the life decision to move from Birmingham to Liverpool to start university. I really wanted to move somewhere away from home so I picked Liverpool because it's 2 hours away and I knew a couple of people from the city who really hyped it up. 

There are lots of differences you notice when you go city to city. I'm the sort of person that really likes change and can't stay put in one place for too long, and here are my top tips for moving to a new city...

  • Plan before you actually pack your bags and move- You'll want to make sure you're fully prepared before you get there, so you'll settle easily. Make sure you pop to Ikea before hand to pick up all your homeware essentials.
This was honestly me moving into uni

  • Sort our your admin before you get there- You want to be set up in your new home straight away. Make sure you register for a doctor and dentist, and don't leave that to when you're actually sick. Ask for all important letters (bank statements etc) to be sent to your new address.

  • Visit the area before you actually move- There's be nothing worse than moving to a city and realizing you've been catfished and it's nothing like you saw in the pinterest pictures. You'll want to get to know where all the best restaurants and night life is so you have something to do while your there. And figure out the public transport online before you get there too. Bus prices are something that vary loads city to city, so make sure you know all the best tickets to get for public transport and if it's worth getting a transport pass.

  • Meet up with people you may already know in the city- in the 21st century long distance friendships are common, so it may be likely that you already know someone where you're moving to. There's nothing better than a familiar face to help you get settled.
Why not meet a friend for coffee?

  • Keep busy- whether this be joining a social club, really keeping on top of your studies, getting a job. Making sure you're always doing something and socializing helps beat homesickness. 

  • Take into account the change in weather- I've only moved 2 hours north but let me tell you, it's bloody freezing. So chances are, if you're moving to another part of the country, or even world, you'll have to prepare for the temperature change.
Me walking around Liverpool in the Winter

  • Learn the accent- the scouse accent is definitely one that took me a while to be able to understand. There's nothing more humiliating than trying to buy something in the shop and having to ask the person at the till "what" a million times. 
I do love the Scouse though!

So that's been my top tips for moving away from home. The song of the day is The Voice Within by Christina Aguilera because it's a timeless classic. Thank you for reading,

Izzy K xxx